Surprise! I’m back, friends. I know my disappearing acts are probably getting old, and thank you to the readers who are bare with me here. I have a lot to talk about. That’s really what I was waiting for, I guess? Some good meaty content to give you all. I was going to post last week, but I drafted it because it was basically me complaining about my job and I didn’t want to post something like that. I’ve also been sick the past few days and it kind of puts you in the mood to just lay around and do nothing.
Where do I even begin?
Well, I started a new semester. I’m hoping that I can do better this time, but honestly my motivation for college hasn’t been high at all. I realized that I’ve worked so hard and made college such a huge goal that I didn’t even think about whether or not it was something I even really wanted or needed. I guess it was, and I had to experience it. So far, though, it hasn’t been inspiring. It’s just something I kind of want to get over with? I don’t know if my feelings will change once I get to my junior and senior year when I’m taking the classes that really involve my major. So far, I love my Intro to Diversity for Educators class. I’m going to get to do service hours and volunteer at an actual elementary school and help out in an actual class! I’m pretty pumped for that. Everything else is just… boring.
What else? Work? I got transferred from hardlines to softlines… which means I now work in the clothing part of the store. It’s kind of been a weird transition. Change doesn’t usually stress me out but I think it does make me kind of uncomfortable having to learn a whole new system and area and not knowing how things work again. I like routine and knowing what I’m supposed to do. I also kind of wanted to quit my job altogether, but I kind of need an income and I have yet to find another way to make it. I tried applying to other jobs, and even got an interview at a pet supplies store. It went very well, but I guess not as well as the other person’s, because I never got a call back.
And… YouTube! I started my channel and posted my first official video. It’s something I wanted to do for a while but never had the chance, or the confidence to. I just figured it was time to stop worrying about what people will think and stop trying to be a perfectionist. It’s something I wanted and so I felt I should stop holding myself back. I’m hoping I’ll be able to keep up with it and figure out what kind of content I want to post.
Speaking of content! I’m thinking about moving my blog or starting a new one altogether? I kind of want a fresh start and a new look. I got Adobe Creative Cloud and I’m gonna try learning how to use the different apps. They’ve got a lot of cool tools for content creators and I wanna really get a grasp on using them to be able to put out better, more professional content. It could also motivate me to get back into photography and actually put time and effort into my creative work. I really want it to be something more than a hobby, but I just don’t know if I can fit it into my schedule between work and school.
I’ll be posting frequently again, I just gotta figure things out! Thanks for sticking with me, guys.